"That will never happen to us."
"This isn't supposed to happen to us."
I'm 23, i've made myself my own superhero in my mind. I can fix it. I can take care of it. I will save it. If i can't fix it, dad will. Since i was little I've made myself into a Superhero. Mom would constantly remind me I was not invincible when i did crazy adventures and antics. But i always knew i was invincible and If I failed well then Dad would swoop in and save the day.
You know those little girls that adore their dads. They think Dad can and will fix anything in the world. From scraped knees to busted cars to relationship problems. Dad has a quick fix, he has the hugs, he has the tools, he has the words. daddy can fix anything.
I'm that little girl.
I'm that little girl who knows Dad is a superhero.
When you get a call from a hysterical sister that your mom is either leaving the family or is suicidal, you freak. Not knowing what you're gonna run home to, an empty house or a dead mother is the worst feeling in the entire world for this superhero. Having a father not readily available at the immediate time is frustrating but putting faith in that fact that daddy fixes everthing and once he gets home it will all be better, helps. But to watch as he gets home and how he has no fight in him at all. He is not there to save the day. He is not there to make the boo boos go away and hug all my frets and worries away. He is there dejected and slumped over, lacking any zeal or fight over the damsel in distress.
To watch your superhero have no fight, to look weak and powerless before you is disheartening.
I hate being a superhero
I hate being helpless.
To watch two people who are heroes in your life falter is horrific.
This can't happen to us.
It's not supposed to happen.
What have i put my faith in?
What have i made an idol?
i want to be the Superhero
I want to fix things
to make it all go away.
to save the world.
I hate being the Superhero
I'm not a Savior
Life Sucks. God is good.